Billie has been getting everything she has ever wanted. 18-year-old and Five-time Grammy award-winning artist, Billie Eilish is considered to be one of the youngest artists to hit the charts, especially with her number one hit single Bad Guy beating out Lil Nas X’s “Old Town Road” featuring Billy Ray Cyrus which was on the top charts for 19 weeks.
Before hitting the charts, Eilish released her most recent song “everything i wanted.” As stated in an interview with Genius.com, Eilish stated that the song is about her close relationship with her brother. “My brother is my best friend and I have these dreams and these things happen and no matter what happens he’s gonna always be there for me and it’s the same the other way around…” (Genius.com, Beats1 Annie Mac Interview). Eilish also explains in a different interview with Genius.com that the song contains many different meanings. “Pretty much that whole song is about me and Finneas’ relationship as siblings. We started writing it because I literally had a dream that I killed myself and nobody cared and all of my best friends and people that I worked with basically came out in public and said, like, ‘Oh, we never liked her.’ In the dream, the fans didn’t care. The internet shit on me for killing myself, all this stuff, and it really did mess me up.”
As displayed in the lyrics, more specifically Verses 1, the Pre-Chorus, and the Chorus, Eilish explains that she committed suicide and nobody cared but her brother, who she claims in both her songs and through her social media, mainly Instagram, to be her best friend. This song means a lot to Eilish. Eilish, along with her brother Finneas produce all of Eilish’s music together. In a recent Carpool Karaoke with James Corden, Corden and his team went to Eilish’s house and saw the “studio”, which was Finneas’ room. All of Eilish’s songs were recorded, produced and written there. While Eilish was giving Corden the tour of the house, he asked her: “Do you feel like being at home and still living at home has grounded you in the last 12 months?” For Eilish’s response, she replied: “Probably more than I realize. Also just being around my parents all of the time and even on tour my parents are there… We are all on tour together.”
“Before we made any songs together, Finneas said, as a joke: ‘I’m going to make you the biggest pop star in the world.” Corden then asks: “How long ago was this?” Eilish responds: “The beginning of 2015.” Corden responds with “That’s crazy.”
Eilish’s mother came in and Corden asked: “What does it feel like now in this house sitting there, hearing these songs being recorded and made and then now you sit in these arenas?” Eilish’s mother, Maggie Baird, responds with: “It blew my mind when she sang at the hi-hat. It blew my mind when I sat here and heard Finneas and Billie play a song. It’s never not been mind-blowing. It’s almost like there’s been four years of ‘oh my god what is it?’ It’s not like I can never feel it in the moment because the whole experience is so crazy. For a while they would write these songs and I would say ‘When is it going to come out because everyone in the world has to hear it!’ And now everyone hears it. I can’t describe it because it is too amazing.”
In the majority of her songs, Eilish tends to have a specific off-the-wall nature to her name but, after listening to the song, I feel as though, this is her best work so far from 2019. “everything i wanted” touches base on so many sensitive topics of Eilish’s life that the song feels ten times more authentic.
Eilish has always sung with a very low tone that almost sounds whispy but, with that being said, I believe this is her best work. Eilish is able to be more open and sensitive with her audience and fans more than ever and she has done that through her music, especially with this song.
With snippets of the song being played on social media, fans were speculating what kind of song she was going to release as well as when it was going to be released. When it was released in November of 2019, “everything i wanted” debuted at #74 on the Hot 100. During the week ending November 30, the song peaked at #8. The song is Eilish’s second to chart in the top 10 of the Hot 100.”